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8:16 p.m. - 2005-07-17
so things are ok. nothing really exciting has been going on, but I guess that's not too surprising. I do wish I had a social life (no, yelling at the ballerinas not to run does not count as social).
I was fairly excited about the 6th harry potter book, though. I've already finished it. I'm a dork, I know. It was so nice having an easy read though, and it was just for fun! I don't think I'll be reading another book for fun for almost another year.
Once again I'm having doubts about things. I'm not sure how much I want to go back to Kenyon. I still love the campus and lots of things about it, but I just am not looking forward to my senior year at all. And it's not just because of comps. I'm not worried academically; it's just that I want to move on.
I also feel like I've failed in some way. I think it's just mostly that I miss how things used to be both here and in England. This summer's really no fun. I haven't gone out once! I really don't have any real friends here, and so it really kind of sucks.
Why don't I have friends? It really seems like the only good friends I made was in high school. Not that I don't love the circle, but I wish I still talked to people at Kenyon who didn't go to the UK with me.
Grrrrr....I'm not very good at staying angry (unless it's directed at a member of my immediate family); should I work on cultivating it??
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